mr procrastinator

i'm really annoyed with myself.

it's already march and i'm still jobless whereas most of my friends have somewhat already started on their career. and here i am still waking up at 1pm and bumming my life away. while everybody i meet tell me how much they envy this lifestyle i lead, i feel otherwise. but hey, the grass is always greener on the other side isn't it.

i'm not disillusioned, i know it's my fault that i'm still unemployed. no matter how many excuses i can come up with or those that my friends tell me to make me feel better, in the end it still comes down to me. there's a huge gap between knowing you're at fault and doing something about it and i definitely know where i stand.

procrastination is definitely one of my major issues. i'm like the 'last minute' guy. if i had something to do and let's say 2 months to do it, i'd only start 3 days before the deadline. you can look at it as a weakness or choose to see it in a positive light and say that i work better under pressure. and right now, there ain't enough pressure.

well, yes, i do get the neverending nagging from the parents, and the constant reminder of my depleting savings everytime i withdraw cash from the ATM. so what is it exactly that's making me procrastinate?

maybe, its fear. fear of the unknown or fear of change perhaps. i've never really worked a day in my life and this transition from being a student to a working adult is too drastic. i've got no point of reference. i don't know what to do.

it's like how kids always cry on the first day of school. it's not because they hate school or because they miss home but because of this fear of transition. being catapulted into a new environment makes me really nervous too.

enough.

it's time i do something about it.



maybe, after i catch this latest episode of Desperate Housewives.


alijoe

origins of poeps

had dinner with POEPS in town some time back.

the name POEPS came cause we keep calling our group poly peeps since we were classmates back in singapore poly. so from poly peeps it kinda combined and became poeps!




if like you're wondering how come most of my friends here are gals, its cause my class had like 14 people and only 2 were guys. and that 2 included me in it! so like yeah, as classmates we naturally bonded and became great friends.



chilled out at starbucks after dinner. everytime i'm at starbucks i'm sure to order a tall non fat green tea frappe with no whipped cream. YUMS!


finally everyone's here!


alijoe

burn baby burn

so today i made cheesy sausage spaghetti and i used those tomato pasta sauce that you can buy in a jar at the supermarket.
and i learnt an important lesson.


"never stir a pan of simmering pasta sauce without a tshirt on"


one blob of hot, scalding pasta sauce decided to splat out of the pan onto my chest which made me scream a ramble of expletives that when strung together made no proper sense to grammar nor meaning.

i now have this ridiculous red mark on my chest which looks like i got a nasty lovebite.
seriously omg!!


oh.
and yes, the pasta was yummy! :)



alijoe

8am

i'm awake cause i was suddenly woken up by this immense need to shit.

and now i can't go back to sleep.

and to top it off, my block's gonna have a power shutdown at 9am for a few hours. what on earth am i suppose to do without electricity? i can't use the computer, i cant watch tv and my aircon is gonna be off. so damn rural la omg!


mmmm, maybe i should go for a run.


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yeah right.

alijoe

17 takes

i'm hideous. fat and fucking hideous.

i had to do like 17 takes to get somewhat of a decent photograph for my resume photo. 17 takes for 1 photo damnit.

my hair looks overgrown and awful.
my skins looks shiny.
my eye bag are insane.
my face needs 3 rounds of lipo.

i ate yong tau foo for lunch, a bag of caramel pretzels for a post lunch snack, indian rojak for tea time since i was feeling a little peckish, black pepper steak with baked potato for dinner, 5 triangles of dark chocolate toblerone while watching project runway and seafood mee goreng for supper with a tall glass of bandung.

such a cow.



that's it. this weekend i'm gonna just drink water and suck on a slice of lemon!


fuckmylife.


alijoe

from bishan to angmokio

met up with sheryl, jiafang and cecilia today for dinner at mcdonalds. as much as i love the prosperity burger, it leaves me with this bad onion-y smell in my mouth. twister fries was dope though especially when dipped in curry sauce. awesome!! but 7bucks for a meal at mcdonalds is kinda ex dont ya think? maybe cause i grew up in the era where extra value meals used to cost 5bucks.

we then had cheesecake at coffee bean to just chill out and catch up. i like the cheesecake here best. it's really rich and not exactly very sweet. but cheesecake is only great when shared. eating a whole slice alone makes me feel damn puke-ish. chatting with the girls made me realise that we've known each other for like 7 years. then sheryl brought up how when we first met, we were like teenagers and now, we're like in our mid twenties. mid twenties damnit. OMG!! i feel jurassic.

mcdonalds and cheesecake plus a lot of sitting down equals fat friends. fat but happy nonetheless. so to feel less guilty, sheryl suggested we walked all the way to ang mo kio from bishan. i mean, it seemed somewhat absurd at first but the weather was really great and walking would do us good. and so we did.


it was really really nice actually. cool windy weather in a quiet night injected with loud laughters from 4 retards over random stuff that crosses our minds. what better way to end a night right?


alijoe

silicon, saline, poison inject me

"marilyn, judy, sylvia, tell'em how you feel girls!
work your blond benet ramsey, we'll haunt like liberace
find your freedom in the music, find your jesus, find your kubrick
you'll never fall apart, diana, you're still in our hearts
never let you fall apart, together we'll dance in the dark."



i cant fucking get this song out of my head!!

alijoe