the mourning of the heavens

it is like the clouds could no longer hold back. the infliction of torment it could no longer withstand. opening of floodgates unleashing all anguish and woe. let it fall and wash away all tribulations.

in darkness i exist

rivers of water flow from my eyes down to my chin as i hold in my hands shattered pieces of my sanity. adorning a veil of invisibility, i shall tread the rest of the journey searching for a myth.

gonna lock it and throw away the key.

FML
FML
FML

silly of me. oh how silly can you be ali.


silly silly me.


should have known better.


:(

recluse

there are days when i feel like wearing my shades all day long, sit by a very quiet starbucks, flip british vogue and not talk to anyone, okay except to the starbucks guy for my grande non fat caramel machiatto.

there are days when i feel like not twittering, not facebooking and not blogging.


i having wayyyy too much of these kind of days.

and i'm sercretly lovin it.

wet wet wet

is it me or has it been damn damn damnnnnnnn cold lately? every single day rain. my office feels like a gigantic igloo. but i guess it gives me a good reason to wear layers and different different outerwear to work.

oh wells, since i still can't upload any pictures i shall tell u all another joke to make up for it. hahaha!

which insect is the holiest?
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the praying mantis.


geddit? geddit??


LOL

xoxo
alijoe

i know, i know.

i know i havent been blogging for a bit. it's not really i dont wanna blog but then the site that i use to edit my photos is kinda giving me problems. so yeah.

i cant possibly upload photos that are not edited right?! i dont look fucking gorgeous on my blog because of great genes and or great lighting. its purely editing. without editing i look horendous.

since i'm so thoughtful, not wanting to spoil your appetite by uploading my non edited photos, lets all pray that the god damn website is back up and running yeah!

so for now, i shall make it up by telling you all a joke.

'the only way i'm gonna lose 10 pounds is if i went to London to shop!'


geddit? geddit?

recollections and resolutions

i suggest you make a nice hot cup of tea before you read this post because it's gonna be major lengthy and ultra wordy.

ready? set? lets go!



2010 has been a really interesting year for me. the most major thing this year was my transition from a student, to an unemployed bummer and finally to a working adult. i finally got to wear my academic regalia (aka graduation gown) and officially became a bachelor's degree graduate. i met many awesome people at work who i now consider friends. i finally stopped getting allowance from my parents and earned my own income instead. i got to see mariah carey live in concert and very up close. i got a new camera, Samsung PL150, the one with front and back lcd screens.

i'm sure there's many many other great events in 2010 but since i've got the memory of a goldfish, this is all i can think of for the time being. and for the rest of it, i guess its a little too personal to publicize. hahah!

you know, overall 2010 wasn't all that bad. i mean sure there were some moments were i didnt feel like a sparkly diamond ring on a sunny day but you live, you learn and you move on. lucky for me, i've got selective memory. hahaha!




the future is always scary to me because it filled with so much uncertainty. if only we knew what's gonna happen next, maybe then we can plan and our life will turn out better. but then if life went according to plan, wouldn't it be a tad boring?

here's the part where i come out with resolutions for 2011. to me resolutions arises from the result of accessing unhappiness in 2010. you figure out what you are not happy with, and you create objectives to change yourself to your desired perception of yourself.

1) firstly, i think i'm too damn nice to the point of maybe i'm too much of a people pleaser. i'm nice to like literally everybody, i guess i'm just a naturally nice guy but like what the saying goes 'nice guys finish last'. when you're always so damn nice to people, everybody tends to take you for granted and walk all over you. well, i've had it. so please roll out the red carpet and welcome back the acidly sarcastic megabitch.


2) my second resolution is like a carry forward from the one last year, to dress fierce. ignore the naysayers with their snide comments and its time to embrace individuality.

3) eat and live healthier. cut down on fast food and all the excessive snacking on junk food. oh and sleep early is i guess part of a healthy lifestyle too.

4) to be more sociable. contrary to popular believe, i'm actually no social butterfly. i think i blogged about this before. i tend to clam up when meeting new people or people i barely know. i guess i find it awkward. so my resolution for 2011 is to set my inhibitions aside and socialize like a socialite. in short, emulate Paris Hilton.

5) relax and enjoy the simple pleasures of life. it isn't all about the shopping sprees and the partying. throw a picnic with some friends, visit museums and exhibitions, cycle along east coast park, explore places and take pictures with my holga. 2010 zoomed right by, the least i could do is to not rush through 2011 and instead take a deep breathe and enjoy its little moments.


well, so i guess thats it then for the resolutions of 2011. just 5 simple targets to hit to better myself. so now begins the hard part, making sure i fulfill these resolutions religiously. i sure hope so.

to all my sexy and cute readers, i wish you a Happy New Year and i hope that 2011 will be even better for you than 2010!!


xoxo
alijoe

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i'm like wayyy to tired to blog about the recollections of 2010 now so i'll probably do that tomorrow. for now, here's wishing you health and happiness for 2011!